I feel like I say this all the time- but I really can't believe how quickly the years have passed and how quickly my children have turned from babies to toddler to these amazing little people who I am constantly watching and wondering what life will bring them.
Chloe is 10 now. Jake 11.
I am not sure I am a great parent to older children, I really do find it harder now, than when they were younger.
I by nature am soft, a push over even. I have always been so, when they were young it was all about the fun. I never really raised my voice, never left them to cry themselves to sleep at night, never forced the issue of shoes outside, everything was new and fun and exciting we danced in the rain, sang and span round in circles - Daily.
I think, perhaps, I expect too much of them, its almost like because they have passed from the child stage that I am not quite sure what they should behave like now. But then I remember they are not gorwn up yet.
I want them to relish the next few years, learn of course, and grow but I do want them - and me, to find a way to have fun whilst they do that, and I hope, I hope so much that as they grow up and forget how fun it is to be a bit silly, they don't forget how fun it was.